Poem: My Friend

Photo Credit: The Middle Road

Watch out!

But you never did
I told you many times where this would lead
I guess you never heard my screams
Echoing through the walls
I even warned you when I grazed your shoulder
During those sleepless nights
But all you felt was the sudden chill in the air
And all you saw were the tree branches tapping against the window sill

Did I not whisper in your ear that He was coming?
Ahh, so it's true you never listened when I heeded you then
Too busy with your life
Too stuck in your modern ways

How long has it been since we last spoke?
Have you forgotten me already?
Have you not ever slowed down to wonder where I have been?

Those days of you and I alone all seem but a distant blur
You left and abandoned me, never to come back
I was alone, watching you but unable to communicate
Without those memories, I was no more
I was merely a shadow

You had dismissed me as a childish past
But now you know better

We were the best of friends
Sharing our secrets, laughing at life
But now we are but strangers
Such a shame don't you think?

Your daughter, I loved her too
Just as I did you
I thought we could start anew
With her, I became young again
Stronger than I had before
The memories of you and I clearer than ever

But it's all been taken away now
I warned you did I not?
And now my friend, all that remains here is you.

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Halloween is fast approaching, so I decided to write a poem that suits the occasion.  One thing I like about blogging is that it challenges me to try new things and pushes me to write out my thoughts.  This is my third poem here, and I'm surprised I have gotten that far.  I might not know how to write poetry and I might not write the best poems, but I'm satisfied that I have at least attempted something that was once very foreign to me. 

Poem: Hating You

I don't know why you had to be like that
You know what I'm talking about

You used your deceiving looks to play it well
This character you had taken on, this role you played
Is it because you hated me or is it because I hated you?

Remember when you took her with you
Hand in hand to see those things you never let me see?
I was at home that night
Crying myself to sleep
And hating you as though I've never hated anyone before

Remember when you asked me if it was okay for you to be with her again another day?
How you felt you owed her?
Oh, how I fell for that pathetically sad puppy face you gave me
And I smiled and let you go
Even though my heart ached and bleed
I really hated you then, as much as I do now

Remember when you used to wait for me all those lonely nights?
You told me it wasn't safe to be walking out all alone

Just like the wolf in the night
You hovered over my shadow
Baiting and taking your time

Oh, those tales you used to tell through those sharp pearly white teeth

You lied to me, you know
Lied straight to my face
I was merely a pawn in your game

Remember when you said you weren't sure?
Weren't sure about you and me?
Or the things we stood for?
How I smiled and hugged you
Telling you I would wait?
Wait for you to decide on my fate,
My life hanging on your every word

Remember that day when you came back?
You wanted me, not her?
How I first wept with joy as you brought me to the riverwalk
How about how we sat there for hours not talking because my heart ached
Ached in the pain you caused me that just wouldn't go away

I wanted to forgive and forget, but I couldn't
I felt her hand as I touched yours
I felt the warmth of her lips as I kissed you
Your skin reeked of her perfume
And your hair still had the streaks from her fingers

You were not mine
You never were
And I hated you then


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I always think love brings about a variety of feelings.  You can be happy one minute and angry the next.  And sometimes, in those angry moments of sadness, it's best to just leave behind what you believe is love so that you can move on and find true happiness. 

Poem: I've Known You For How Long

I've known you for how long?
It seems like an eternity
Dare I exaggerate?

I've known you for how long?
Seven years of loving you
Two other years of knowing you from afar

So it's true, I've known you for nine years
Almost a decade I'm scared to say
Almost all my life
Of knowing you

I've known you since we were young, so naive, carefree, and sometimes reckless
I've known you since then
Almost all my life you know?

What was I without you?
What were you without me?

It's been so long, I can't seem to remember

So how does it feel?
This you being with me and me being with you

Is it too early to say we made it or too late to say we can't go back?

You've made me cry, you've made me laugh
You were the person that made it last

So, it's true, you do know all about me
Those things I've hidden behind closed doors
Those thoughts I've had that were once unexplored

You've known me for so long

But I also know what makes you mad and makes you feel guilty...oh so guilty, it's bad
I'm reckless in pursuing your weakness, no doubt I am

You say I'm evil, like the devil no one knows
I agree, loves changed me
Brought out the me I never knew

It's been almost forever, and we're getting old
Our relationship hasn't changed
I know what you like, you know what I hate

I've known you for so long...

Your simple ways, your kind heart
You changed me, you know?
You made me into a better me
You made me see my flaws
You gave me a bigger heart
And I learned how to share

You taught me that you know

But what did you learn from me all these years?
All these seven years...

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I don't know anything about poetry nor do I even claim to understand it.  I just so happened to be on my phone today typing this randomly in my notes.  Now it's posted here, unedited, and simply as it is. 

Do you ever get those moments in your life where something just pops in your head?  An idea?  A simple thought?